“Uh oh, this can’t be good,” I thought when I stepped on the throw rug in front of my fridge, and it was wet. On further inspection, I saw water dripping from the freezer onto the rug. When I opened the freezer door, everything was thawing.
I do not want to deal with this today.
It’s my last day of vacation before I head back to school tomorrow for AVID camp. I want to go to the beach, read a book, take a nap, and rest. Fill up with sunshine, the sight and sound of the ocean. The place where I feel so close to God.
I should spend time at the Skilled Nursing Facility with my mom. After one great day, yesterday she struggled with pain and discouragement. I want to hold her hand, pray with her, help in whatever small way I can.
Instead I’m waiting for the repairman. Doing laundry. Catching up on neglected household chores. Grumbling and whining the whole time.
My plans for today changed. Now I need to change my attitude.
From grumbly hateful to humbly grateful (Back at the Creekbank by Janet McMahan and Kathie Hill, 1983).
Because I have a lot to be grateful for:
- Jesus loves me.
- I had today off of work, so I have the time to deal with this.
- God is good all the time.
- I have coolers and getting ice from the store only took five minutes.
- My troubles here are temporary; I have the hope of heaven.
The truth is, I don’t need to be in a special place to be close to God. He is ever-present. He waits for me to go to Him. He is available 24/7.
When I go to Him, He provides the joy I need in every situation. Even when I think I have cause to complain. Or worry. Or handle things myself.
When I go to God, abide in Him, I remember, He is all I need.